Ready or not

us circa: before monster
The monster is going to grandma and grandpa's... overnight.   
First night away from both of us.

I would have never thought she would be this old for the first time.
Before she was born we planned on a vacation that summer.
A couples vacation...

She would have been 6 months old.
It seemed like a fabulous idea.
A great get-a-way.
Just us - alone.

And then she was  born.
You spend hours and nights keeping her growing.
Days with out showers...

Eyes with dark circles...
Clothes with spit-up stains.

You think this would push us to leave...
run for any time that could be just ours.
But it doesn't.

I mean we talk about it.
Dream about it... in full color.
But doing it... so different.

It is the investment... 
of blood, sweat and tears
time, space and self.

You have so much riding on this little human.
You have counted every breath.

You know the hairs on her head.
You know the laugh that means trouble.

You could pick her out of a line-up...
by belly button
by finger nail
by the smell of her head.

No one can be better at it than us...
because we have more riding on it than anyone.
Deeply and entirely invested.

But there is something I am forgetting a little.
The just me and him.
How it started.
Just the two of us.

Staying up late to just talk.
Sitting at dinner until most of the tables are empty.
Waking up in the morning... 
without getting out of bed.
The feel of his hand on the small of my back.

Time to remember.

She is ready.
We think we are too...

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Meredith said...

Have so much fun!

We haven't left Lizzy overnight yet--no one has offered, but then again, I'm not sure whether or not we'd be up for it even if they did! Since Lizzy doesn't get to see J much during the week, I feel conflicted about leaving her overnight on the weekend, ya know?

Rici said...

Good luck girl! We are hoping for this moment sooner rather then later especially since we have to prepare for October & the hospital stay!
Let us know how it goes! It will be just fine! Remember, grandparents are the 2nd best thing!!

Erin said...

Good for you guys! We haven't done the night away until the babe is about 1 1/2.
Have a great time!

kristance ann said...

aww! have so much fun! my hubby and i are going away this weekend (two nights!) for our 5 year anniversary. it's the first time we've ever left our 3 kids with someone overnight. i'm nervous and excited at the same time. congrats on taking that leap, enjoy your much needed time away!

Melanie said...

Hi Nessa... I LOVE your blog! So glad I saw ya on Jen's flashback friday. Happy new follower!

Oh man. I can so relate to this post. My lil monkey is 2 1/2 & we've only been away once. Ofcourse it was spent calling Gparents & talking about him constantly. Go figure! You're little monster is too cute!

Mandi said...

I love this! My little one is 9 months tomorrow and i still do not think i could pry myself away from him just yet...im working on it though. You two enjoy your time :)

Kelly said...

You are brave!! I hope you guys have an awesome time. The monster will be fine =)


good for you!!! parents NEED this. you all are adorable

from mel said...

your writing is so genius.
its so awesome to see our kids growing at such a close rate. even though we've never met. i hear ya, girl, and think a vacay is needed on this end of the u.s. too :)

Jen said...

Go have some fun! That first time us tough, Jae was 18 months the first time she stayed overnight. It does get easier and it's nice to be able to get away! Thanks for linking up!

Adriel (The Mommyhood Memos) said...

Good for you! I hope your time is amazing!! We just (last month) had our first night away from Levi. It was a lot easier than I was anticipating actually. And I suppose it helped knowing we were just a few minutes car ride away. (Got a hotel in town for our anniversary.) But yeah, no doubt little M will be just fine... Hope YOU guys will be too! :)