3.13.2012

You and me

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It has been you and me monster for quite a while.

All those drives, flights and hotel room talks we would have.
When you were still snuggled up in my belly.
Kicking and thump-bumping away as I chattered on about silly things and work things.

Hiccup spells in the middle of training classes I taught...
that made me giggle and laugh in front of a room full of adults who thought I might just be a little crazy.

Late night, really late night, and early morning nursing sessions, 
some where we were blurry eyed... 
and others that I think we both might have slept through.

Long car rides to and from work where we talked and sang...
sometimes entire drives where we both cried our eyes out.

Middle of the night nursing sessions that I looked forward to, even though it made me exhausted...
just because I missed you so much, being away from you for 12 hours a day.

Our first few months at home full-time time again...
getting to know each other's schedules...
and you making me conform to your way of doing things.

Trips to the playground, library, zoo, museum, grocery, and to see daddy at work.
Thrift stores and parks, our and our neighbor's back yards.

Making beds, folding laundry, cleaning floors, planting a garden, vacuuming the floor.
Making you in the bed, you un-folding laundry, stealing my mop, picking all the green tomatoes and getting chased by the vacuum.

I have been thinking about it a lot.
How much things are going to be different with a new brother or sister...
but before I was thinking about all the changes for me.

But on Saturday it really hit me.
How much things are going to change for you...
for us.

Going for a hike.
Just mommy and her monster.

You are the person I spend the most time with.
Probably more time with than anyone in my whole life...
even my own mom.

It is going to be good and bad I think.
More good though.

As we both learn to share.
As our hearts both grow and love someone else.

Just know that I will miss the just me and you...
and there will be special days just for us.
I promise.

Black and White Wednesday  and then, she {snapped}

17 comments:

Melissa said...

This is so sweet, it made me cry. ♥

Adeena said...

Awww. *sniff*

It does change. I remember going from one to two.

But, it's a good change. :)

Gerty Mitchell said...

She will love you for this, Nessa. Wonderful words.

Melanie said...

Sighhhhh....!

tinajo said...

Lovely written - and lovely pics! :-)

Molly said...

I remember worrying about that when I was pregnant with No.2...it is easy at first but then suddenly you realise that months and months have gone by and you have not spent a moment with just one of them. They don't really seem to mind though...mine seemed to be happy to have one another, until they decide they are not and then they really do go at it hammer and tongs.

Mollyxxx

Adrienne said...

oh, this made me weepy and nostalgic and weepy. sigh. My greatest fear before my son was born was "loosing" what I had with my daughter ~ which was a closeness to another human being that I had never experienced. And I think it was hard for me to imagine that it could happen again, with another child...like somehow it was unique to her an me. But it did...and you will - you will make special mommy daughter times. And take trips together...and plan a wedding together ;-) This is beautiful ~ and will be cherished!

Heidi said...

I just love your heart, Nessa.

erin said...

so sweet - a beautiful way to hold on these moments! i remember the same with my daughter before brother arrived...can't imagine life without him, but we still are mom & girl too...and in so many ways its even more special and cherished.

Em S said...

Soak it all up and take it all in, but I can assure you, the change is good! You will see little monster open her heart!

Susan said...

Aww, sweet. Beautiful photos too, your daughter is adorable :)

Jen said...

Very sweet :) I am feeling the same way right now as we expect a new little one. Good luck to you!

Kelly said...

And I'm crying now...

Mama said said...

What a sweet letter. She is so lucky to have this to look back on. #2 is hard. I couldn't imagine how to love another one as much as my first and was a little sad that I wouldn't have the same one on one time. But it all works and watching their relationship grow is an absolute JOY!

Cari from Bubble Gum on my Shoe said...

I remember this exact moment with my first, almost mourning our one-on-one. But, you won't miss it, you will remember it and think back to it and remember how it was quieter:) But when Deedle comes you won't be able to remember a time when you didn't love them both so much and want to be with them both all the time. And one-on-one is important, and necessary...but there is new fun and new adventures to be had!

misc.alaina said...

Sweet photos, and such a sweet post to your baby girl!!

Adriel (The Mommyhood Memos) said...

are you trying to make me cry? cuz you are.

sometimes i really miss those times with levi, but that's why i think it's so important to find some time each day to be with your kids individually. even if for just 10 or 15 minutes. it's actually easier than i thought it would be... but also probably much more important for both/all of us than i actually realize. thanks for a good reminder to make it a priority.